He came back ya know. well actually we both did. after we broke up we both moved to different states. but now were back. i dont know if that means anything but were talking again. He was the first person i ever loved. the first person i chose to let in and chose to love. he was the only person i thought would be there and never let me down. until he did. he broke me in a way that no one else could break and no one else could fix. but somehow i still love him
We started talking on the phone then i actually saw him again. and every. single. emotion. ive ever felt toward him came rushing back. He says he loves me. but he loves someone else too and doesnt know what to do. he wants to have one night. just us. like the old days to act on feelings and emotions and see if it could work.
i dnt know what to do. blah is how i feel about it actually. the kind of blah that you feel when you tell yourself you dont care. he hasnt been in youre life for 2 yrs and you were fine without him. the kind of blah that you feel when you werent actually fine without him but had convinced yourself you were and you NEED him.
i cant stop thinking about him. do i give him one night n see what happens. i just dont want to regret it. or worse to have been used.
i remember when i was younger my grandma would always tell me to never settle for the badboy that we think we can change or save. rather wait for the one who wants to save and help you.
well im waiting. somebody come save me. fix me. choose me. love me.
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